<TITLE>11. Par 98-102</TITLE>L-98 I have been very--been very nice. You know I love you people. And I love you with undying love, and God knows that. I've had to be in isolation. There's people, across this--this America, that I'd love to shake hands with, and have longed to do it in the meetings. I couldn't. See? You don't know what affect that vision has to you. Just as soon as you stand before the person, there it is. You see? And I just wouldn't say it to the people sometimes, but there it is before the person. I found out things with people, I wish I didn't know. People that's to be my friends, and yet, you'd know that it was wrong. God would come down now and permit me, I could tell you things that would be surprising to you.
And there I have asked the Holy Spirit, if He will, which He's told me... I've asked Him if He'd just let me first get myself settled back to a place to where I was when I left the Tabernacle, just back to there, and let me get quietened down, that when I stand before the people, it won't be vision. It'll be... I can talk to the brother and not see his condition. Just then just offer prayer for him (See?), and be like... I've asked God to do that.

L-100 I come home. And I know, this week, that no one has been around the house. It's a good thing. I've been about five days up there; I couldn't even move. I--I have been to a place I'd raise up, look like my bones was aching and everything. 'Course, that change around, exactly eleven hours and a half difference, between Bombay and here. Right now it's just about time I'd oh, I--I'd done been sleeping an hour or two ago (See?), so it's nighttime, and just changed around. And then that weak blood pressure had went way down like that, and I just couldn't hardly get up and down. That's all. I brought it on myself, trying to overdo myself. So now, I've come back home, by God's grace.
And now, this next week I'm going away, just to stay awhile, two or three weeks out to myself: to stay alone, to pray, first. I'm going to go hunting, if the Lord willing. But before I do that, it's going to be... I'm going a few days before the seasons and so forth. I'm going up into Colorado. I want to stay at least two or three weeks or maybe more, just to be alone by my real lonesome self, and say, "God, here I am."

L-102 I may come down and ask Mr. Mishler for a job again, Mr. Mishler, back to the Public Service Company.
I've--I've fulfilled what He told me to do. And I stand at the Tabernacle, this morning, just the way I left ten years ago. I have no manager. My manager resigned when the heat was on. I don't have any manager.
My boy is leaving. And my boy, setting back there, is going to the Army. He's had been my buddy. He stuck by me.
Some of them always fussed at me, "Why you got Billy with you?"
If you'd only knowed how I packed that boy on my arm when he was a suckling baby, without a mother... I kept his bottle under my head at night, with no fire in the house to keep his bottle warm, and fed him. He's been my pal all the way along. We're going to die that way, if God willing.
Probably go to the Army right away; he got his papers yesterday to make his decision, whether he wants to volunteer or--or be drafted. Well, I won't have him.


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